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Qin: Different ah! It's so short now. And washing my hair is no longer a chore.

Yee: Ya. Still considered long actually. But I have cut off almost half the length of my hair already!

Jacq: That's exactly what they told me. They'll send me a lawyer's letter! And it costs 50 bucks lo. I am to bear the cost.

Win: Last time my Moon Cake festival was more interesting. Much more interesting.

Jamie: I think no more lantern exhibition already right? Anyway, Moon Cake festival is over alos. So... ya.

Ah Ong: I am Lau Goh! Not Ah Goh! Hahahaha. AH ONG AH ONG AH ONG AH ONG... *Chants*

Afro_max: What Xiao Ding Dang's sister??!! That yellow color one ah? Look like meh?!

Emily: Miss betting with you, miss clubing with you, miss KTVing with you, miss playing paper boats with you... I miss you! Come come, let me give you a kiss.

Been quite a while since I last blogged. I wasn't exactly busy. Just kinda lazy to blog. Bleah.

So... What have I done for the past few days? I've watched 2 movies, went to the KTV, worked, go to school, eat, sleep... Ya. That's about all. I realized I have been spending a lot on cab recently. I seriously believe it's some sort of an illness in me. I can never let an empty cab cruise past me. I'll feel as if I had let myself down. And I'll cringe and fume and get so angry with myself. It's THAT bad lo.

Anyway, anyone watched Singapore Idol recently? I guess majority of you people did huh. It's so IN now. Everybody is talking about it. I'm glad Beverly is out. She seem too emotional. She's either always crying or laughing while jumping around. Irritating. She seem more like a fan than an idol to me. On the other hand, I quite like Olinda. I thought her singing was nice! Though I must say that I don't quite like her current image. Perhaps it might help if she is slimmer and had long hair. Haha.

But one contestant that has really caught my eye is Sylvester Sim. I thought he was good. Yes? No? Especially his "Look into your eyes." He just stand out from the rest of the contestants. But do you people realize he has many many 'small actions'? Exactly what I don't know how to say it here. Maybe I'll do a demo and post the video clip on my site. HAHA. Also, I feel he'll be more successful if he's in the Chinese Music industry. He got the "Chinese" look, doesn't he? Hahaha. I'm trying to sound like one of the judge.

Duh. I think I'm having the Blogger's Block as quoted by Winnie recently. I had quite a few issues that I want to blog about but my mind just can't seem to put them into one decent entry. Something's wrong... very wrong....

Chao Kah: Yea. Hopefully that is the LAST bad thing that is going to happen to us. But I doubt... *Shrugged*

Xian: yes. Time really really flies. I find it hard to believe this is actually our 8th month together also.

xxx: Since you're unwilling to reveal who you are, i will not force you too. Take care! Good day. :)

Kelvin: Which means? Impossible to trace who took my call ah? Why is this always the case for me?

Jacq: Can meh? They will write off as bad debts? They threaten to write me a lawyer's letter leh. I don't want to be a bankrupt cause of $557.83!!

And I am at home. I thought I was suppose to be least hanging out at some void decks playing with candles or paper lanterns with my friends. Or maybe Bryan.

But the occasional "Phewww" sound coming from the void decks are annoying me! You know, the sound produced when you light up a particular kind of Fire/sparks stick. It just reminds me of how I should be outside rather than blogging pathetically at home.

Guess what. I've finally chop off my waist-long hair. Muahaha. It didn't really turn out too bad. But I suppose it might be better if it's longer. I do look different now. With a little bit of fringe and layering here and there. Still not quite use to it but brushing my hair now is as easy as ABC. Haha.

I've actually wanted the Landy's look in her MTV. But it turns out that my hair looks more like Zhuang Mi Xue in the 9pm show on channel 8. Well, not too bad la. The next thing I'm going to do to my hair is to dye it. Probably dark brown. Cause I'm still not ready for black. Hahh.

I shall make do with those pictures below. To keep you people in suspense. HAHAHA.

Jac: Seriously the dogs over at his house ain't very lovable. But he has one Chihuahua that looks like a Garfield. Haha.

Mandy: Yea. Wonder when are things really going to get better. I'm sick of living.

Xhann: That's bad! But he's even worse. I think he told the whole world I failed. But aiya, up to him la. Like I say, if he's happy this way then let him be. I can't be bothered also.

Jitz: I so down already you still cursed me go down further! Some friend are you huh!

xxx: Who are you actually? You must have heard me sang before else why would you have such a comment. But you really hear wrongly. I sing like FAYE. Not Selina. Hahahaha.

How fast. It has been 5 days since his grandfather passed away. His body was cremated today. I shan't go into details of what happened. Not nice to do so anyway.

Let's just pray that they'll get over this departure of their love ones and get on with their lives soon. I think they have quite accepted this fact already. Afterall like I have mentioned before, it might be better in some ways because finally he is not suffering anymore. Imagine yourself battling your own sickness and suffering from pain everyday for almost 2 months. Not to mention, you can't walk, can't eat, can't bathe... How terrible is that.

Which means I have been together with my sweetie for 8 months already. I can't help but say this every month. How time flies. Hahaha. Really what.

It seemed like only last week that I blogged that I have lost my M1 sim card. Actually it has been one freaking month already! That debt has been settled also. I didn't go for any installments. Because I can't. Which reminds me, I am going to write in either to M1 or some straits time forum tomorrow to lodge a complain.

I just can't believe how I was treated by the FRIENDLY M1 customer service operator. I told you people M1 sucks and you don't believe me. *Pouts* Not just the customer service but the quality of the greeting message and the management as well. And the act-friendly orange sun. Hmm.. and their low quality PLASTIC bags. Yuck.

Not long after I lost my SIM card, I actually called M1 to arrange for installment payments. The service operator said they can give me a grace period of maybe 2-3 months. I can probably pay $200 first then settle the rest in 2 months time. I didn't want to fork out so much money at one go so I requested for a longer grace period. The service operator told me she'll get their finance department to contact me.

I had to call them three times just to check when they are going to contact me. (Because they have already suspended the line.) But the third time I called, the operator told me the installment plan I requested was rejected. He said that if I want to pay by installment, I can too. But I'll have to wait for them to terminate my line and wait for their lawyer's letter. And by then, I can arrange for installment payments with their solicitors. But he told me to bear in mind that by then too, I have to pay an additional fine of $250 because the contract is still on. Otherwise, I have to pay up in 2 days time.

I want them to bear in mind too that I didn't incur this stupid charge! I'm paying out of goodwill! It's not as if the company will go bust if I don't pay this bill immediately.

Now you people know what is behind the M1's orange veil. Black, dark, evil service operators who can't wait to terminate your line and send you lawyer's letters.

Ohh. So much and I forgot the topic for the 8th month anniversary. Haha. I'll just make do with my favorite advise to you people this month:

Treasure your love ones. Tell them you love them. Give someone a hug today. Don't regret only when you realize they are leaving you...

Another month! And I love you just as much as ever. During these 8 months, I realize that the best feeling in this world is to lie on OUR bed, sleep and laze around doing nothing. Of course all these with you beside. Such simple things really make me very happy. :)

Guess what. One of Bryan's dog died today (22Sept). I heard she fell and broke her neck. What is happening here?

Sorry, but I think I missed out a tag or two... That's the problem with Tag-Board, you can't review past posts.

Qin: Haa. You just haven't met the REAL babes of Ngee Ann. I can't hold a candle to them!

xxx: Selina? Are you sure? You must have been deaf. I thought I sang like Faye Wong. Ha ha ha. Ok. bad joke.

Mandy: Laugh all you want! I'm short but I'm charming! Don't believe ask A Guard. Bleah. Hahaha. I got alot of supporters one okay.

Emily: Touched... But even if you don't volunteer to take leave, I'll force you down also. Haha. So, you don't really have a choice.

Stanley: Small gas cannot ah? Call police lor. HAHAHAHA. Garfield... Burn disc. PUI!

Before I begin. Remember that guy who mocked at me in school? As if it wasn't enough, he sent me a mail.

Hey Ho Sei Bo! Now u repeat module den very free right?! WHat u do wit the time?

Duhz. I didn't reply. I'm just not in the mood to deal with people like him now. Laugh all he want. If he's happy gloating over my failure then let him be.

I have everything so well planned. I was so excited about this day. My sweetie told me he had never had a decent Birthday celebration before. I mean those with cakes, big crowds of people, birthday songs etc. Almost every year, he kept a low profile during his birthday. While we normally will have celebrations held at pubs, KTV, chalets etc, the most he would go is to give a treat to his friends at some nearby coffee shop.

This year, I had wanted to make it different. I wanted to make it an unforgettable year for him.

I got Emily to help me book a KTV room at KBox. I gathered all my friends as well as his. We planned to decorate the KBox room with party ribbons and surprise him with a big birthday cake. For the second half of the day, my plan is to hold another mini celebration for him in his room. Yes. Just the 2 of us. And all the 'party animals'.

But now, all the party animals look sad. Not even the colorful HAPPY BIRTHDAY sign could cheer them up and the cookie's n cream cake is still sitting in the fridge.

Hahh. What a harsh way to make my sweetie remember his grandfather's death anniversary. It seem to me that since the beginning of this year, nothing good has happened to the both of us. Bad things come. One by one. Never ending, they seem.

I really hope things will get better. Not for me but at least for my sweetie and his family.

Stay strong no matter what. I'm always by your side. I believe we can brave through everything together. One day, the bad luck will just stop following us. Be optimistic. At least your grandfather's sufferings has ended.

You guys prolly won't believe it. But this morning, the dog (Milo) at Bryan's house was whining and crying all the way. The Dog acted really weirdly. One moment, he went on to knock on his brother's room. The other he ran over and tried to push his way in to Bryan's room - which is very rare. And he howled and whine while looking into space. That really scares me. And it's only this morning that Bryan told me this dog was bought by his grandfather. I was thinking, maybe the dog knows his rightful owner has passed away. But of course, I might be the one thinking too much... *Shrugged*

Among the party animals, there's a Police Officer. It's his colleague. Well, just some crappy thing I made up.

Xhann: Thanks!! But the meeting session is over which means no matter how you vote it won't make a difference already. Heehee.

Afro_max: Yeah. I feel so lucky to have so many "sudden" supporters. I didn't even know they are around me! And sure I will study hard to get out of this school. Can't stay for one more day.

2527: Awww... Baby you're so sweet. If there's a cutest P.O contest I'll definitely nominate you. You really look like a baby with all your babyish expressions. Haha. Love ya!

Xian: Thanks! But don't be so bad la. Maybe lots of pus will do. Forget about the scars. MUahahaha. Anyway, you sure the Landy's hair won't 'qiao'? I seriously feel it will! So nice right, that hair? Maybe you want to send me a picture of your hair?

Vivian: Sad to say, don't have leh... But it's really good enough to know I was the short listed one. Heh heh.

Very suddenly, I have a sore throat. Must be the fried chicken fillet I ate at Long John Silvers earlier on. It hurts even when I swallow my saliva! And I am having cramps so bad I think I can die. Yeah. And don't come asking me why I have cramps...

Worse of all, I am working tomorrow! Wonder if I can survive the 10 long hours that I have to stand.

Stop feeling sorry for me people! It's already a fact that I had turned down the offer by Mediacorp to join the School Belle contest. The only regret I have is I didn't check what is the prize I could win. I'll kill myself if the prize is 5K. I need money so badly you know.

Anyway, I received an email from a sweet girl. She's from my school too. I'm not sure whether she want her name to be mention here so we'll just call her Y. Here's part of her mail to me:

Actuali wanna tell you...u reali should go for the belle thingy!!! just to tell you..you have another supporter here oh.. true tat if your frez like wanshi they all still ard..u'd have greater 'ren qi'.. but i believe.. you'll still have it now.. maybe if can..u try call the mediacord PIC and tell her you change your mind to join already.. hope to cya on tv..

Thanks girl. The meeting session was suppose to be today. So I doubt it'll make any difference if I call them now. So... Just be it! :)

Can you believe it? Another supporter. Maybe it's really really a mistake of me turning down the offer. Aiya... I think I'll just stop dwelling on it. It's over anyway. Maybe I'll accept the next offer to join Miss Universe instead. Muahahaha. As if I got the height. Siannn ah!!!

I've actually got tons of photos to upload but my stupid brother deleted the device manager meant for my phone. Now I can't find the same program to download again. Darn! I wonder why has he got to delete that poor little icon sitting in a corner. It's not as if it's getting in his way! One day I'll delete his Erricsson Phone manager to let him have a taste of how it feels like not being able to upload anything. But I doubt I will do it cause I'm nice. Then again, when you're nice, people tend to take you for granted.

Suddenly I am beginning to wonder if me turning down the offer was a good decision. It seem like I have many supporters leh... *regrets*

Mandy: I didn't really wanted to turn it down! And I believe I have the courage to brave through all the rounds as well. Except that to win, a major factor is "Ren Qi". Which I think I have NIL. So aiya... might as well don't go.

Christina: Who are you? One really has to go through it before you can really know how it feels like.

Jac: Hohohoho. Your tag brightens up my gloomy day! You actually thought all along that I will be in huh?

Afro_max: Indeed you need to have alot of friends to be in this thing. Because a major part of the judging comes from your "Ren Qi" thingy. And since I have no friends in school, I suppose nobody is going to vote for me. So... yeah lo. And really thanks for thinking so highly of me!

Andog: Slap him? Seriously it wouldn't go into your mind at that point of time. Some more I am not a violent person. Let alone slap, I didn't even scold him. I think I'm too nice. Hahaha.

Win: Aiya. Actually I also don't want to turn down one. But... if you were me you'll also turn down one la. This kind of competition will only remind me more that I have NO friends in school!

Yunz: Yeah. Agree totally. He's a loser. Muahahahahaha. Let's hope he fails too. And I'll laugh back at him. But then again, I'm suppose to be nice. So I can't do evil things like that. Let's just hope nobody ever fails again.

Aloy: Wah... Face kana run over by car??? Got so bad anot? Hahaha. Thanks anyway!

Xhann: I hope so!! I shall do without a wallet for now. Planning to get the Burberry one once I'm rich. Had been eyeing that for... I think.... 2 years? Can't remember la!

Pea: Then maybe you want to get me an 'egg' or two? I'll appreciate it. And if you had really care, you wouldn't ask me to go die instead of blogging about it here.

Emily: No la. He haven't die. I think he thought you died instead. Muahaha. Let's hope my next entry can be about my dad. Need gather information. Haha.

Stan: Mmmm... No la... Not say doubt la. Got time then tell you. Jot it down. Haha.

Yee: Nope. I am still going to cut. But not as short as Emily la. Maybe I want to have Landy's hairstyle. Saw Guess3 yesterday night. So nice! But I scared cut already will "Qiao4" then got to rebond then need money then I no money then like that lo. Anyway, I actually found the ticket. I didn't win. Hahahaha.

Di: What?! You see suey me will not win big sweep is it? Anyway to me, photos are very important memories!! More important than IC. Maybe different people different views. And I think my photos definitely cost more than my IC!!

I can't believe it. I actually received a call from Mediacorp regarding the School Belle thingy! They said I have been short listed and they would like to meet me in person this Friday.

And guess what. I turn them down on the spot. I just can't imagine myself competing for this title when I have practically NO friends in school. It'll only make me lonelier. Isn't my life pathetic!

If all my friends were still around in school, I'll definitely go for it. Afterall, it's a hard-to-come-by chance to appear on TV. I really didn't want to do it. I rejected the person-in-charge no matter how hard he persuaded me to join. He insisted I've "got what it takes" to win. Muahaha. Ok... this actually makes me feel better. Abit. But I just can't do it! I feel so sorry for myself.

Saw a friend of mine in school today. (I still had a friend or 2 in school) I was walking alone to my class when he called out to me.

He burst out laughing loud while I walk away quietly hoping that the ground will swallow me. Somehow, I feel so humiliated. What's so wrong about repeating modules? I've not a single negative feeling towards myself but why do these evil people want to make me feel so bad? I hope they'll have a pimple plantation on their face for the rest of their lives.

Been feeling rather down lately... Guess I should just take my medicine and go to sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep forever.

This is the picture Winnie posted of me on the school belle thingy. You guys can check it out here <---

Xian: Yea. And I have to wait for another good 3 months before next year! I just can't wait for time to pass quickly!

Chilli: I am already very calm! Like I say, if I am not calm, I would have killed my sister already.

Weny's Advisor: I can't live to imagine I am all alone in this world! Anyway, thanks for trying to help! I didn't know I have a personal advisor!

Meidi: Cool down. What happen to you too? Read your entry. You can always give me a call.

Win: Yea. I am OK now! As usual, just abit exaggerating in my blog. Hahaha. Update your blog!

Jamie: Live everyday like it's the last day of my life? I wouldn't want that. I'll be so sad to know that I am dying the very next day... Haha.

Eve: Yea. I agree too. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe I didn't win the Big Sweep afterall. Maybe god just wants to make me feel better. So he arranged for my sister to lose my wallet. So that I'll never ever know that I didn't win any money actually.

Andog: Great you understand... But now I'm really feeling so much better. I feel I have the energy again to go around understanding people and try help solve their problems.

Nobody: Ya. You are right. I have a very good boyfriend. I am already very very lucky. Thus I really shouldn't be complaining anymore.

Aloy: Nah... I don't think I would like to elaborate further. I, myself don't know what had gotten into me also. I must have been possessed. Whatever it is, I choose not to mention it anymore. It makes me seem like a crazy person.

Jac: it just seem to me that there had never been any UPs since this year. Maybe except for meeting 2527. Haha.

Xian: Finally I decided not to cut but trim. Hohoho. But Fiona's hair is really nice. I can't remember who. But someone mentioned in my tag that this kind of hairstyle when not well maintained will easily become the infamous 'mushroom head'.

Stan: Aiya. You can also write your dad as the "BEST" dad in your blog right? What damaging!

Fancy me saying "The world doesn't owe anyone a living. It was here first." and yet here I am whining that everybody should die. Muahahhaha.

Okay. I wasn't really feeling THIS bad about my life. I was just having this ultra big mood swing of the year. No. Not PMS. Just a sudden bad feeling. Perhaps it's because my sister lost my wallet - with my big sweep INSIDE. I could have win 1.5 million you know! I could have take 0.1 million out and give each of my blog reader a treat. Now it's all gone because my sister lost my whole wallet. She's ever so careless. It's already the second wallet of mine that she had lost. Had my temper been a little worse than now, I would have slap her. And maybe kill her.

Looking on the bright side, at least she had taken out all the photos I took with my friends and sweetie... Those are the most important things in my wallet. ATM cards, NRIC, etc can be replaced. But photos are memories that no amount of money can buy. Duhz. But still, I haven't quite got over it. So to prevent another big 'depression', let's drop this subject and move on.

Remember a friend that I blogged about previously? "S"? He sent me an SMS yesterday and appeared at my workplace. Suddenly, I feel so guilty. So guilty of accusing him isolating himself from us. Actually we could have call him if he didn't right? It's not as if he had change his number. Why in the first place did we expect him to take the initiative to stay in contact with us when we hadn't make the effort ourselves? Don't we deserve some smacking here?

Oh no. I sound like a jerk here. But never mind. I think the next time I write an entry, I'll leave it in my folder for 3 days before I post it up. Just in case I regret what I had wrote. But then again it's so bad right? Making my blog readers read expired entries.

So it's not such a good idea afterall... Lalala. Oh oh oh. I am going to cut my hair soon! I have finally decided that I can't bear to part with my long hair. So I'd probably just give it a trim. Muahahaha.

I'm feeling so F**ked up now I can kill anyone in sight. NOTHING good seem to be happening lately. N-O-T-H-I-N-G.

At this very moment I cannot control myself anymore. I hate everything. I have never felt this bad ever in my life before. Not even when I have lost my SIM card previously.

EVERYBODY needs my understanding. I have reached the point where I can't understand anymore. When people demand you to understand their situation, have they considered yours? Why do people always think that whatever bad things that had befall on them gives them an excuse to throw their temper or have special privileges to certain things?

For the first time in my life, I wished everybody will die. For the first time, I couldn't take it anymore. For the first time, I can't go on anymore. For the first time, I sincerely feel like dying.

Since the beginning of this year, my life have been going down slope. I haven smile a genuine smile for ages. Didn't you people notice that drop of tear glistening in my eyes even when I smile? No. Because nobody really cares.

I can't stay optimistic anymore and I can't lie to myself that things are going to get better. Cause my every tomorrow is worse than today...

RandomReader: Yea... I think the most I'd dare to try is shoulder length. Haha.

Tingz: You sure? So are you encouraging me to go ahead and cut my waist long hair? Mmmm.... Anyway, I agree that shoulder length is equivalent to don't cut. Cause other than the back, there might not be any difference at all.

Chilli: Nah!! Bai Wei Siu is a bootch. Or Butch. Whatever the spelling. I can't spell it cause I am not one. I have no difficulties spelling girls, princess, feminine etc.. Ok, back to her. I think Joanne Peh looks better with long hair!!

Stan: Of course la!! When he younger he looks like Chow Yuen Fatt ok! He's the best dad ever around. I'll blog about him on my next entry. Hohoho.

AAA: I can't afford to look anymore younger. People say I look like 17 year olds. Sob. I don't want.

Xhann: Why your tag so sad like that? I think you're too bored and lonely at home!! But it's really kinda true right... We seem to lose all friends when they go out to work. And you're actually leaving for Australia when I already have not much friends!!! How could you...!!

Jacq: Yeah! Fiona Xie's hair rocks!! But I doubt we'll have this kind of effect when cut. Something sure will go wrong.

Meidi: This Sat will pass to you!! Anyway, I haven't finish watching Mean girls. I mean, I haven't started watching. Anyway, the quality sucks. Oh, the deal's OFF! Cause well... I think the most I'll go is shoulder length. Muahahahahah!

Jamie: Of course I remember. Those were really the days. Whenever I recall them, I will laugh. We can never get sick talking about them. It's just so funny. I'll blog about this some day too. Hahaha. BTW, please go get a blog soon!!

Anna: Nope. My date isn't wrong for this entry. Black hair with side parting?? I'll consider that. In the mean time, I'll just live with my "bad hair days" Darn.

Emily: What do you mean by Jappy hairstyle? This picture THAT bad meh? I thought it was kind of cute. Wohohoho. Actually I think your perm is not that bad la. You say until so jia lat. At least it's like F.I.R. Right? I suggest you leave it on first. Your hair needs a break!

Yunz: I want to try leh. But I no courage. You know how long it takes to grow till this length? A good 5 years at least! Since my hair grows at such a pathetic rate.

Qili: But... But I've had this hairstyle since I was in Secondary school. The last time I had short hair was when I was 14. *gasp*

Pea: No. I look messy. Because of my hair, I really feel ugly lately. So I think with short hair, I won't make ugly of myself. Cause I already am. Boo hoo.

Qin: I admire your courage to cut your hair! I love long hair. It's just that I have been having it for too long. I have long hair when I was young too. Know why? Because I wanted to be the dream girl of every guy. Muahahaha. Dream girls always have long hair right? Duhz. Silly thinkings.

Yee: I'm just not into straight anymore. Sometimes I wish my hair is a little wavy. And black. And short.

Val: Shoulder length consider short or not? With short hair I won't look sexxxxyyy anymore... :(

Jit: Wah... stupid moves... got so serious meh? I'm just sick of my current hairstyle...

Jamie: Maybe around shoulder length? But I saw yang Chen Ling in Guess3 today and her long beautiful hair really makes me don't feel like cutting anymore. Urgh. Going bonkers.

Jacq: Ya lor... One thing I love about long hair is that got that princessy feeling. Hahaha.

Win: How about abit shorter than shoulder length? Actually I quite like Fiona Xie's new hairstyle in her latest Serial drama... But I... aiya. Really no courage.

I've got the date wrong for my last entry and nobody actually discovered it. It makes me wonder if you people really READ my entries! Duhz.

Today's my mum's Birthday!! Bleah. And I didn't buy her anything. Not that I forget okayyy... But my brother, sister and I had decided to sponsor my mum for a rebonding session at Kimage. Pretty new for a birthday gift idea huh? Can you believe it?! My mum's going for a second rebonding session! She's hip! Muahaha.

Here's a pic of my dad at the restaurant we went to just now. I thought my dad looks cute in it. Haha.

I'm going out with Shi tomorrow!!! It's been so long since we last went out shopping together. It has been 2 weeks? Or 3? Last time, we used to meet every week. Sometimes, we all get so busy with our life that we forgot to take out that little extra time for our love ones. Which is pretty sad.

I still can't accept the fact that most of us have already graduated (except me) and are out into the working world. To me, it feels like I've lost most of my friends. It's always difficult to arrange for meet ups. Everyone has a different working schedule. Not to forget, priority of free time usually goes to boyfriends first. Which means there is almost no time left for friends.

Is that why a blog becomes a must for us now? Without a blog, I think I will just lose contact with friends, forever. How bad more can it be?!

Take an old friend of mine, 'S', for example. This guy used to be on quite good terms with me. Though we seldom contact each other, we still do sometimes either by exchanging some SMS or have some 'communication' through my tag board. But recently, when everybody starts to get busy, he just disappeared. He vanished from our lives suddenly. No, he don't join us in our gatherings anymore. No, he don't tag us anymore. And no, he don't update his blog anymore. Nobody knows what had happened to him. But we all know he is alive as we sometimes receive advertisement mails from him. We all deduce that maybe he had got himself a new girlfriend. That's why. Cause it happened before.

So disappointing for someone you call your friend huh? He'll never have that place in my heart again... No! Don't mis-understand. I meant have that place of a good friend. Thought you've read some juicy news is it? See.. Typical Singaporean.

In the past, friends are always the most important people in my life. But now, my sweetie comes first. Because it's only now that I realize the only person who will put you in their "most important people" list will be your other half and your family.

So much for my whining. Things are not really THAT bad. Muahahaha. Maybe I'm just too lonely in school. Hahhh!

Jamie: Yea. It rocks totally. Got chance should come and take a look at it yourself!

Win: I hate to reply tags on the tag board itself! Always exceeds limit. So duhz... And ya! Emily looks like a red crab. Bryan too!

Xian: It's a nice and cosy and most importantly, BIG house. Anyway, her house is at Malaysia. And she's moving to Australia next year. Around February. Sigh..

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Till the end of time forever
You're the only love I'll need...

In my life You're all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me...

When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You.

Imagine me without You
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid
Without You there to see me through...

Imagine me without You
Lord, You know it's just impossible
Because of You, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without You...

When You caught me I was falling
You're love lifted me back on my feet
It was like You heard me calling
And You rush to set me free...

Imagine me without you... I'll be nothing.

I can imagine myself without you. Over these 7 months, I have grown so attached to you. You are always the one beside me when I needed someone most. I've never felt so in love before. I'm glad we've met!

Today's not the 24th nor any special occasion! Just have the urge to blog about something romantic. Perhaps it's the song. It sounded as if it was written for me! Hohoho.

By the way, I am planning to cut short my hair. What do you people think? I'm actually quite sick of my waist-long hair. (Envy yea?) And quite suddenly, I'm dying to have black hair too. I'm just not into brown anymore. I guess it's the age...